Thing is about mental health it’s an hidden illness, one that can only be identified by ones behaviour and actions we portray…any change in behaviour believe me people take notice of some behaviour they may ignore some they will challenge and others they will question “have you had your meds today?”… Now forgive me but I know lots of people who live with variety of life long illnesses some physical some hidden. I can promise you I have watched some of my closest friends cry in pain and frustration causing them to become snappy through lack of sleep…pure exhaustion yet hand on heart that question as never once left my mouth why? Because I know my family and friends are sensible enough to know that taking their medication is vital in their self care and needed to help with their illness or disability. I know that no one asks the question to upset infact quite the contrary I know that people are trying to be caring but sometimes it’s more crushing then helpful…let me explain why I feel this…..sometimes people seem to forget that people living with mental illness still have feelings, we still get upset, angry and frustrated just like anyone else ohbeit in admittance for some of us these natural feelings can be exesibated and we may cry more than others, scream and shout more than others swear..more than others but we are only reacting to a situation that clearly impact on us..our medication although it can prevent some people having any ‘feelings’ we are still going to shout if we stub our toe, be angry at an idiot pulling out in front of us and annoyed if the cleaning up isn’t done or if one is having an argument…blowing my top? Maybe because I am reacting to the here and now something that’s got on my nerves! Trust me no amount of medication one can take will ever be able to prevent that … Mood stabilizers help to do exactly what they say they do help stabilise moods, although they can be amazing I have never not known them perform a miracle (not that they claim to do this) however they have been known to throw out some pretty horrid side effects such has shaking, nausea, dizziness, short temper, hallucinations for want of a few add this to a stump toe imagine the rush of feelings already running round the body to then have added pain! Antidepressants given to us to help us feel better and help with emotions..well that’s ok to help with ‘normal’ day to day life but as before they too dont have any affect on stump toes or dealing with idiots. Then we the antipsychotics that come with more side effects than I can write funnily enough change in mood is one of them! Is your blagged? So far we have identified the amount of drugs that people take and the horrid side effects they have that no matter what we have to try and deal with them…dont get me wrong it would be a long day if I like most of us was to tell you everytime I felt odd, weird, spaced out,sick …need I go on? I am sure by now you are beginning to get a just of what I am saying (I hope) every second of everyday people with mental illness are constantly being reminded that we HAVE TAKEN OUR MEDS … our meds make it hard to eat(dry mouth) so some of us will avoided it but our loved ones,carers, friends will be insistent on us eating something anything because they feel better knowing we have eaten, its lovely but not very helpful we are not being awkward or looking for attention the truth is them meds you remind us about well they are the reason i/we cant go for that meal or drink, we cant go on fast rides or work on machines….just because we get cross doesn’t mean we have not taken them infact we are probably grumpy because we have!

Hoarding…why sone people just can not let things go…
Life is not plain sailing for any of us well maybe one or two and if that’s you I take my hat off to you! My family and friends have always questioned the ‘amount of shit I have’ ..I know I have a lot but I can tell you now there is a reason and need for all off it…I will tell you why…when we have something taken from us in life this can be a loss of a pet,loss of a family member or friend, been attacked, abused, raped, moving house, the list is endless, the point is every single person will have their own reasons for keeping hold things that others cant fathom out…its not attention or because we enjoy it in fact I tell you know it’s the one thing in my life that annoys the hell of me..but…when I even begin to think of throwing away an old card, a ticket from a train, one of the 700 cups in my garage, my old clothes…I become overwhelmed with anxiety…I cant let people do it for me because amongst the organised kaos I actually know what I have and the fear that someone will take away something belonging to me cripples me! As I said its bot the same for everyone but this is also a reason I love too hard, I seem so desperate I need to know what’s going on because that overwhelming fear of loss really is the pits….some of you will read this and think yep I relate to this, some of you may think that it answers questions about a loved one or friend and some of you may not know what to think…. we all have our reasons for our actions a coping strategy that keeps us in control…as a person who hoards I promise you it really is hard to just get rid of stuff 💜
Hope this helps some people xxx

Anxiety
Is one of the most soul destroying disorders I think a human can have, self doubt, traumas the constant fear of what’s beyond the covers of the bed that keeps you safe. For lots of people with anxiety we have run a marathon of fear before 7am! What should I say today to people?why do i look fed up? Will people stare at my top? Will people be laughing at me and talking behind my back? What if I walk outside and a spaceship lands and I get taken away? What if a man with a gun is on the field and wants to shoot me? What if I see that person who attacked me when I was 12 or them bullies from my primary school? What if I get robbed and I cant call anyone because someone stile my phone? Or if I have a panic attack? What if people thing I am strange…nah I should just stay here in bed where I am safe
This may seem a little OTT to some but this may just be a smidgin of thoughts for others that make the knots in their tummy tight, their heart beat fast and hard so it feels like it’s going to explode, their fingers drowned with sweat as their body shakes from head to toe whilst everything around them become louder, smells stronger…hurts more!
Anxiety is hard and for those who try each day to beat it WELL DONE! For those who help someone with anxiety thank you for those who dont quite get why people are anxious maybe spend a little time one on one with that person and let them explain as they go what’s happening to them…no judgements Anxiety is REAL, it is LIFE STOPPING and it HURTS
Please be kind to people you never know what they are going through

TAKETENTOTALK

Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.

— Oscar Wilde.

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