Hoarding…its the pits

Hoarding…why sone people just can not let things go…
Life is not plain sailing for any of us well maybe one or two and if that’s you I take my hat off to you! My family and friends have always questioned the ‘amount of shit I have’ ..I know I have a lot but I can tell you now there is a reason and need for all off it…I will tell you why…when we have something taken from us in life this can be a loss of a pet,loss of a family member or friend, been attacked, abused, raped, moving house, the list is endless, the point is every single person will have their own reasons for keeping hold things that others cant fathom out…its not attention or because we enjoy it in fact I tell you know it’s the one thing in my life that annoys the hell of me..but…when I even begin to think of throwing away an old card, a ticket from a train, one of the 700 cups in my garage, my old clothes…I become overwhelmed with anxiety…I cant let people do it for me because amongst the organised kaos I actually know what I have and the fear that someone will take away something belonging to me cripples me! As I said its bot the same for everyone but this is also a reason I love too hard, I seem so desperate I need to know what’s going on because that overwhelming fear of loss really is the pits….some of you will read this and think yep I relate to this, some of you may think that it answers questions about a loved one or friend and some of you may not know what to think…. we all have our reasons for our actions a coping strategy that keeps us in control…as a person who hoards I promise you it really is hard to just get rid of stuff 💜
Hope this helps some people xxx